Tag: fear

Little Girl Makes a Big Splash

My father threw me off the end of the dock. It was his way of showing me that I could swim if I had to. Maybe this sounds heartless, but it was actually brilliant. He knew the longer a kid worried about swimming, watched… Continue Reading “Little Girl Makes a Big Splash”

Ice Trucking

In my dream, I am driving our truck. My husband is driving something else and we are side by side on a two-lane road. We come to a stop. My lane goes forward and his goes to the left. I watch him drive away… Continue Reading “Ice Trucking”

Tap, Tap, Tap

Tap, tap, tap. I pull the blanket tighter around my shoulders. Tap, tap, tap. The house is silent now, the whispered screaming over. Tap, tap, tap. He’s sorry now that he scared me. Tap, tap, tap. Do the downstairs neighbors know that he is lying… Continue Reading “Tap, Tap, Tap”

Oh. So Sorry.

Friends are fleeting but memories long, the many grave trespasses layered like old earth, part of the soil on the paths where people walk, looking for footprints of the thing to be feared.

Do I Want to Be Cheryl Strayed or Her Mother?

It’s not that Cheryl Strayed hiked 1,100 miles, a trip chronicled in her book, Wild: Lost and Found on the Pacific Crest Trail.  It’s that she did it alone. She chose to be alone.  No cell phone. No hiking partner. No thin string connecting… Continue Reading “Do I Want to Be Cheryl Strayed or Her Mother?”

Quilting: A Domestic Violence Story

PART 1 Thirty years ago, I sat all night on the sofa in my upper flat, smoking Benson & Hedges, with my mother’s green and orange afghan wrapped around my shoulders, waiting for my addicted, unpredictable, and sometimes violent boyfriend to pull up in… Continue Reading “Quilting: A Domestic Violence Story”